I’m basically having a serious crisis & I’m getting really close to doing
something stupid. I’m 17 & I suffer from an eating disorder, & have been
overweight for almost my entire life. I recently entered a relationship, but
with a friends ex boyfriend which caused me & her to fall out for good, leading to a really uncomfortable environment at work for me, as she’s turned everyone against me.

My Dad had a brain hemorrhage in March this year, and as the main
provider in our household, has caused conflict at home concerning, bills, chores & emotional problems. I don’t get on with my Dad, never have & only visit the hospital when I feel I have to.

I feel extremely guilty for not really caring,
but I just don’t feel a connection. I’m coming very closely to the end of
Sixth Form, and I’m struggling with revision & turning up to lessons is not
happening often at all. I’m constantly arguing with my mum about things, and because we’re both so stressed it doesn’t end well. I recently stopped
learning to drive as I wasn’t comfortable with my driving instructor, but
really want to carry on maybe with someone else, but money’s tight, & I’m a
panicky driver.

My partner lives 20 minutes drive away, and works full time & so
we don’t see each other as much as I’d like, but when he doesn’t come
over, I feel depressed & get angry at him, which is not fair. I’m always angry
& when he doesn’t text back straight away I say things to hurt him, but also
get so low that I cut myself, or binge eat. I can’t cope with all of these
things, I really can’t.

Since I have virtually no contact with any of my friends anymore & don’t speak to my family, sometimes I have no verbal contact
with people for days & it’s driving me insane. I have self esteem problems as
I hate my body as I’m overweight, and have sun damage to my facial skin. I
don’t know what to do, there’s a million & one other problems I feel I’m
facing, and I feel like I’m completely alone. Please help me, I’m too scared
to visit my Doctor again, as she doesn’t take me seriously & I’m too shy to
speak to a therapist. Please.

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